writing, hallucinating, aching, imagining.

[tamaranth]

Which is grand, as I'm slightly ahead of target (from being nearly 4K behind on Wednesday) and it's only lunchtime.

I have a peculiar sort of earache, which I can best describe as the migrainey headache transplanted about 5cm left. It's hard to locate -- certainly not old-fashioned ache of inner ear, which I suffered from very badly as a child -- but very firmly in one place: problem is, the place where it feels as though it is, is outside my skull. Perhaps I have an invisible antenna or other sense organ protruding from my left temple, and it's an ache in that?

On the subject of invisible things, I realised yesterday that I was still suffering the hallucinations (or visualisations) that came with the migraine-or-whatever. Trust me, the middle lane of the M25, about to enter the Dartford Tunnel, is not a good time for this realisation. Very entertaining it was, though. Shiny and weird.

this next bit may sound slightly weird.
Given that many of my hallucinations are of people, I was vaguely hoping that a visit to St Peter's Chapel would produce ghosts themed hallucinations. It didn't. Though that in turn produced a story-germ, which I have dutifully scribbled.

Right: must be time to get up and go out for some fresh air, though possibly not as fresh as yesterday. Also to get ache out of bones. I'm still aching quite a lot from the tense muscles that so often accompany migraine attack. (And still feeling nauseous and randomly sleepy. This is a week after initial attack. Stop now kthx.)

Comments

[major-clanger.livejournal.com]

Hmmm... I've heard of Phantom Limb Pain, but not Phantom Brain Pain. Most peculiar!

I think the only time I've at all recently had even a mild hallucination was when I was on some medication a couple of years ago and found myself reaching down to stroke the cat that we didn't have. For some reason my brain had decided that the duffel bag by my feet was feline in nature. No, I don't understand either.

[tamaranth.livejournal.com]

Phantom Antenna, please. It did feel rather weird!

I do seem to be pretty sensitive to all kinds of medication, and have had bouts of hallucination before. Hallucinating people is more unsettling as I'm generally quite convinced they're there -- until they're not. Cat-hallucinations, on the other hand, are perfectly normal: it is the collective feline consciousness projecting images of happy cat-ownership directly to your hind-brain. (Some people get the more elaborate carrot-and-stick version, which involves hallucinating mice as well: 'cause obviously you'd need a cat to deal with 'em ...)

[major-clanger.livejournal.com]

Now you've gone and given me a very weird idea: evidently in cat-rich areas such as Cambridge, the feline morphic potential is so high that vaguely cat-shaped objects are just itching to emerge into full cattiness. As susceptible humans start to treat them in a cat-like manner - even unconsciously - their cat attributes become stronger and stronger until pop and the Cambridge cat population increases by one.

Must be a story in there somewhere.

[tamaranth.livejournal.com]

you've gone and given me a very weird idea

*bows and smirks*

Glad to be of service!